I'm Hungry

As my title states I am hungry. I sit here at almost 5 in the afternoon on the couch in my living room. It's about time for me to be putting dinner together. Katie (my roommate) made a absolutely AMAZING meatloaf last night. As I was dancing in Bye Bye Birdie rehearsal I kept burping meatloaf (doesn't that sound appetizing). Anyways, I am going to be eating wonderful left-overs and a salad which is chilling on my counter right now. 

It's interesting to think about what happens when we hunger. In my case, since I am Hypoglycemic (is the medical term for a state produced by a lower than normal level of blood glucose. The term literally means "under-sweet blood" -- So I guess a vampire is out of luck when it comes to taking my blood it will be "un"sweetened), I have to constantly be eating good portions of protein. I can't just eat some candy and restore my blood sugar to a good level. Basically, my blood sugar level will spike, and I get really sick. But on the other end, if I don't eat any protein or get some sugar in my system I get really sick. So the way I stay alive is by trying to stay in the medium with balanced levels. 

When I haven't eaten I get shaky, my head begins to hurt, my stomach begins to eat itself, and I have no physical or mental energy to do anything. My whole being is desperate and dependent on the food I eat. I must eat everyday 3 times or more. Shouldn't this also be the case for my daily walk with God? Should I not long to speak with my Heavenly Father? To hear His sweet voice whispering in my ear? When I go through the whole day too busy to stop and say a prayer should I not feel drained having not been in His presence? Perhaps it doesn't hit suddenly at the end of my day but it sure catches up and when it does it is drastic. For my spirit should be so disciplined, to have a never ending hunger for the word of God and daily relationship building with Him. Am I desperate? Am I longing?

Yes. I think the older I get and the more challenges I face bring me closer to the feet and heart of God. Last year may be a testament of that. How beautiful it is to see the green grass before me. How amazing it is to know that the path ahead is planned & I have no worries. My life is but a vapor on the wind & soon I will be carried away. 

The challenge is to live life everyday in surrender, to hunger throughout my days for more of Him and less of me. 

For Lord I am hungry and thirsty for more of You and the marvelous things ahead.