Found This Old Post On My Computer

Wow. Well, in times of trial, and in times of hurt... your friends won't always be there for you. That is when dependance on God is key. He will never leave you or forsake you. He won't judge you. he sees what lies ahead not only the here and now. He understands you innermost heart and knows the plans he has for you. So when you feel abandoned or lonely or like you have screwed up so bad that everyone around you doesn't want to be around you and you don't even want to be around yourself because you are beating yourself up for making the wrong decisions... God is there to stay, he will hold your hand, He will love you unconditionally, He will remind you of the truths about yourself that you have lost because you have been hearing lies and believing them yourself. God is the relationship I need to work on the most. I love him. I love him ever so much more now than ever before. :)

Motivation

I burnt myself out. Over a course of 7 years I have over-committed and filled every possible moment with things I wanted or needed to do. Now that I have hit this place where I feel that I have burnt out, I find myself feeling lazy. Almost there. Senior Year. Almost done... but still so much to do... and this is when it really counts! I need structure to my week. Structure in a way that I can take time to not have a plan. Does that even make sense? I feel that my life needs a re-structuring so that I am using my time wisely. I don't want to worry or feel anxious. Pastor Dan talked about seeing things from a Heavenly Perspective today in church. I feel like I used to have more of that perspective back in my 11th and 12th grade years. Here I am in my 17th year of school (counting Kindergarten). Time to view school, work, homework, relationships and life from a more Heavenly Perspective. Time to create a healthy habit. Time to sit the little girl down and make the woman stand up. (Thanks Jay Strack)