My Brother in Laws new Worship Song

Week 3

1.  The topic of "being" and "doing" is very important in our spiritual and personal formation.  If you miss the important point that "doing" must flow out from "being," you will eventually burn out.  You will settle for a life that is inferior to what God has intended for you.  Everything you do must be energized by your personal relationship with Christ.  In many cases, what you are "doing" is not the problem.  The problem is on the "being" end.  With all of the "doing," you are not able to make Christ your ultimate pursuit, and have sacrificed a cultivated relationship with Him for a life of activity.  When this happens the "being" aspect of you is stunted and the "doing" parts of your life cannot be sustained.  Reflect on your life right now.  Take inventory of all of the activities that you are currently involved in.  Most likely, they are very worthy causes--girl scouts, business, Bible study, school, worship team, etc.  Are your activities (doing) flowing out of a life energized by your growing relationship with the Lord (being)?  What practical steps can you take to bring your "doing" and "being" into balance? (Boa Text)

This year was absolutely packed with activities that filled up most of my schedule. In a normal week I would go to church once, bible study once, rehearsal every night Monday through Friday, class Monday through Thursday, work Tuesday and Thursday afternoons, and sometimes all day on Fridays. That didn’t leave much more time to do anything other than sleep and complete homework, occasionally I was on set for a film. The world had been feeding me the lie that I needed to do everything. “We sojourn in an increasingly fragmented world that has a way of eroding our commitments and blurring our focus” (Boa, p.213, 2001). Now as it is summer my schedule has slowed down, I look back on my busy schedule this past year and wish that I had been more careful about just “doing” things. I feel like my “being” was at a stand still this past year. I didn’t allow myself time to breathe, which in turn made it hard for me to put my servants heart into what I was “doing.” Currently I could be more involved, but the Lord has instructed me to stop and seek Him. So I may find out who I am through knowing who He is. I will find my “being” and next year there will be an improvement in my “doing” flowing out from my “being.” For now, its little steps, only committing to what little I can, making sure I am invested, not just checking out part way into an activity. I want to be able to give my all, and to let it flow from my “being,” from my heart and spirit. I don’t feel that my activities were energized nigh my relationship with Christ. It’s sad to think about, but I think I didn’t allow myself to enjoy the opportunities and see what God was doing through them. A lesson to be learned. This upcoming year I want to be more level in making sure that my relationship with the Lord is president in all that I do, that I am seeking Him even in the midst of an activity, to have the mission He has given to make me thrive. I reflect on a verse I memorized as a girl in summer camp: “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to the God the Father through Him” (NIV Holy Bible, Col. 3:17). Amen.

Spiritual Formation

This may be interesting to you all. I am taking a class called Spiritual Formation. This class is a study focusing on the dynamics of personal and spiritual growth as understood in the Christian tradition. Practical tools, in combination with historical perspective, provide the backdrop for self-exploration and spiritual development within students. 


With that said, I will be posting some of my discussion posts. I think they are essential to this blog and what it stands for.

Jeremiah 17:9 (New International Version)

 ⁹ The heart is deceitful above all things
   and beyond cure.
   Who can understand it?

Psalm 33

²⁰ We wait in hope for the LORD;
   he is our help and our shield.
²¹ In him our hearts rejoice,
   for we trust in his holy name.
²² May your unfailing love be with us, LORD,
   even as we put our hope in you.

Doing It Right

Life laid it out

Although its so enticing

I can't help but feel sick

This is the challenge I have prepared for

So with a lump in my throat

With my stomach in knots

I make a hard decision

Couldn't it be easier?

It shouldn't be that hard

This is how I know I'm doing it right

Peace has come and taken over

But that doesn't take away

The caring heart that keeps caring

A Drop

When life is filled with excitement and booked schedules it can be hard for all things to come to an end. Everything ceases and there is a drop in neurotransmitters. A low level of neurotransmitters can make one feel lonely and depressed. I will admit that sometimes I have this problem. I get bored with catching up on sleep, I find myself restless to have plans or something to do. It is hard for me to sit still and be alone. I have recently missed out on spending meaningful time with God. In the midst of the crazy moving out, moving in, graduation, Bye Bye Birdie, and getting in a car wreck, a lot has happened that consumed most of my time. My journals and bible and devo books were somewhere in the midst of boxes and bags. I made an effort to read out of my devos on my iPhone but, i find it to not be as fulfilling as meditating on a verse or chapter. Last night was a blessing. First I went to a bachelorette party and then went over to Megs apt to visit her and her sickly self. We sat and literally talked for about almost 4 hours. In that for hours I was so blessed. So many words were spoke that I took note of and took to heart as encouragement and hope. It also made me aware of some very important things that I should be praying about. & you know what else. something amazing happened. prayer was answered. almost a year later. a year was what it took to awaken someone's heart and move mountains in their spirit.  i could not help myself... i was crying uncontrollably and shaking... my teeth were chattering and I just felt a release... a cry of answered promise. I was so completely overwhelmed. It felt and it felt deep. Oh my Lord how beautiful and wonderful he is. He loves His children and will take care of them.



“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” - Psalm 139:13-14

Fighting with Myself

If any of you know me well I am a very indecisive person. Things will come down to the day before or hour before I have to make a decision and I will still be struggling for my own answer. Kinda sucks sometimes. I'm the person who wants to eat their cake and also keep it preserved in a glass case. Not possible right? There is always a common ground I have to come to with pros and cons, weighing the differences. So when it comes to making decisions I have never had to make before thats a kinda scary thing as well. I have quite content lately with what this summer is supposed to be about. God has revealed little bits and pieces of the summer life. A sort of passion and excitement has come over my heart and spirit for the amazing work the Lord is going to do this summer. Conquering silly fears, ultimate healing, and new friendship making. I sense freedom in the air. To be as a little bird... this is me:

"If you have a need, Trust Him and Believe."

Pieces of something??

Take me out to the wooded places where the road is far behind

through the fields of waist high flowers

Lets climb the mountains that greet us and show them how to dance

Standing at the edge bare feet to the cliff letting go


Everything here is so unknown theres no way we will see it all
But take my hand in yours and we will waste the days away

Quicker than I thought

This morning flew by quicker than I thought. So many friend graduated within seconds of each other. This is a new time of change. Although, aren't things changing every second we breathe? This is a big step not only for the graduates, but for their families and for the people that surround them in love. How the Lord has ever been so beautifully faithful to each and every graduate. A promise of a future fulfilled. It made my heart race to stand up and scream in joy for friends graduating Undergrad and Grad. It was a beautiful day, not too warm and not very windy. The Lord has fulfilled a promise to me in this day. Restoration, hope and love. The beauty of sitting with friends and cheering on the leaders that go before us. To shower everyone with love and congratulations. I blinked and it was over. But in that moment of celebration so many memories I will take with me.

I am so excited for this summer. So many adventures to be had. How interesting to be in this place of life. To be seeing through this pair of eyes and to feel with this heart.


Love Always

So I mentioned I was anxious...

Philippians 4:6-7 (New King James Version)

6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


To be anxious in a fearsome state is something I have to look out for. My heart must be anxious for the blessings that are ahead. Sometimes my mind gets so wrapped up in being anxious over things that worry begins to suffocate me. These are new challenges I have met over the past 2 years. I am pretty easy going, so to be so worked up over something would not even be an issue. Oh how life love to present challenges to stretch us and make us grow.

I am so thankful for the lessons I have learned this year, and the lessons I continue to learn now. Even though God knows it all, I have come to him often just to let my heart & "requests be known." Through prayer... peace has overcome me dramatically day by day. This verse is perfect... The Lord surpasses all my understanding.

Oh that the Lord would continue to guard my heart and mind in these upcoming changing months.

It's going to be beautiful.

So Change & I Meet Yet Again

It's kind of surreal thinking back on May of last year because life is so much different. Life last year was a dream with instances of nightmares mixed in. I don't remember everything that happened last year because my memory and mind has been so graciously wiped clean of some things. But some of the dreams of last year will always be close to my heart and memory. So here I am a year later and change is here. Its knocking at my door and I am almost anxious and nervous to let change in. Who knows what this summer holds and what next year will bring. I know it will bring marvelous things planned and also unexpected. I turn 20 this summer which is a day I have been waiting for since I turned 18. I will be a woman :) OPA! I don't know why turning 20 excites me more than any other time in life but, I do know that the Lord has amazing things waiting. I may find new bits and pieces of the calling on my heart.

So here is a calling out from the heart, soul and spirit of me. To experience new and many more things this summer. Oh Lord that you would fill this new life with joy and wonder.

Amen and Amen.